Matt's Breakup

I searched the camera and came across this video. It appears to be Matt in the process of breaking up with his girlfriend. I guess that takes some of the mystery out of it. I don't know how to find Matthew and Jason right now, and to be honest, I'm not completely sure I want to be around them if this stuff happens.

To clear a few things up with this video, I apparently did place that phone call. I don't remember it, but after looking on my phone's recent calls from that day, I called him. It lines up.

The video weirdness, no idea what's up with that. Could be a camera thing. I don't even care. The audio is what freaked me out. In the last video, that squealing noise blasted from the room I was in. It was incredibly loud. I don't remember there being a point of origin either. Like it was in my head or something... 

The people. Man number one is my brother Jason obviously. The guy outside, I don't know. By the time I got outside I couldn't see anything. My vision had completely gone and my head was spinning.

Alone

What a mess. I've been over this footage at least a hundred times. When I rounded the corner, my vision got blurry quick. That startled me. That was the first time I have ever blacked out. That noise was so loud. The camera didn't pick up the half of it. It felt like my head was splitting open. I woke up about an hour and a half later with a bad headache, and drove home. I'm glad nobody saw me out there.

I wish I could have just talked to him! Dang I am so alone right now... I'm the kind of person who makes friends like quality over quantity. I don't really have anyone right now except some of you guys talking to me on twitter. Haha and Dr. Todd turned out to be a paranoid old man too. Matthew was right. He's probably a creeper. Know what though? It doesn't even matter to me. I don't think I'm cut out for therapy anyway, so he can have his space. Sleepwalking has gotten less frequent I think. It's kind of hard to tell, but I think I'm getting better. 

Who knows?

Jason

Alright here is what I found on that SD card. I am 95% sure that the guy who grabs the camera and presumably tampers with it, is my little brother Jason. He took off about a year ago. I've been living on my own since. He didn't tell me where he was going, or why he left... He just up and left in the middle of the night. I went to wake him up one morning and he wasn't there! He ignored his cell phone just like Matt... Oh God...
I need to go look for him. This video was around when Matthew was supposedly stalking his girlfriend which was only like 2 months back. My brother could still be around. I have to go look for him. I need to check Matthew's house, and that park. Maybe they are hiding out together or something... I don't even know... It's like there's something that no one will tell me.

Jase, If you can read this, just know that I love you. I haven't stopped looking for you even if everyone else has. Everything that happened back then, none of it is your fault.

All the Answers Thus Far

Just to clear things up, Ill let you guys know whats going on. I was at class most all day yesterday and was supposed to meet up with Matt in the lounge afterward to work on homework, then we were going to my house to play halo 4 with my brother. That didn't happen. He never showed up. I called him a few times and no answer. I haven't heard anything from him all day yesterday or to this point today (2:20 p.m.). Also I went by his house today and he wasn't there. Normally I would say he's fine and just taking some time to himself, but he also didn't show up for work today or yesterday. That bothers me. As a guy who lives paycheck-to-paycheck and is always after more work, he NEVER misses a day. I'll go by his house again later to see if he's there. I don't have the camera on me (but I do have my iphone) so I will definitely update you guys as soon as I can. So stay tuned in on twitter @Gregswisdom and his is @The_Hotagi.

While I'm at it, I wanted to reply to a few comments in a post here. When I got the camera from Matt in the first place, there were no videos or pictures on it. There is however a full file system on the SD card and the movies only save in one particular place so I never checked any of the other directories. I will check though as soon as I can.

To those wondering about the time between the two clips in the last video, nothing really happened out of the ordinary that I can tell. Matt got a call from his girlfriend and seemed really annoyed with her. He said he would be over as soon as he could. Then you guys saw what happened. He grabbed the camera and pretty much just walked off. Haven't heard from him since. Thinking back on it, he got pretty down after we shot the video.

I keep getting questions about Dr. Todd as well. He's kind of an old school guy. Probably late 40s. I don't feel comfortable giving out his information yet, but I have a sessions coming up soon and I'll ask him if I can. He's kind of a simpleton, but he is really good at what he does. I don't have a reason to not trust him. I found him out of the yellow pages and he has tons of business there as far as I can tell.

Finally got around to reading that analysis of my dream more in depth. I did some soul searching as well. I feel kind of freaked out by everything. There's so much going on and I feel overwhelmed by it and just want to get away from it some times. Yet at the same time, I feel relieved like someone is listening to me. Most of it makes sense in a really bizzarre way. But what annoys me so much is that it doesn't feel like a dream at all. I don't know. I'm going to show it to Dr. Todd.

Also I saw the translation of that song and wanted to clear that up as well. I sang that song in my sleep according to Matthew. I don't know how or why because I don't speak French. Neither does Matthew. I don't know about him, but I don't remember learning it. I may have picked it up from a children's show when I was little but I honestly have no idea. For some reason I never thought it was odd that I know part of a French children's song about freaking ferrets until when Matthew brought it up earlier. This is all just weird...

Sorry

Forgive the awful singing, Matthew isn't a good singer...

So after the events of the video, Matthew grabbed the camera and just walked off. He didn't say goodbye or even buy a copy of halo like he intended. A little odd, but who am I to talk...

One other thing, I would like to get an actual camcorder for these videos. This one has no night vision and therefor, isn't conducive to proper video shooting or making our videos awesome.

Ignorance is Bliss

So it has been brought to my attention here on the board that what I wrote the other night is some kind of cipher or something. I actually do know a little about basic cipher stuff from highschool 'nerdery' and followed the tip that was sent my way. Turns out it could be in fact, a Rot Cipher placed over a Latin phrase. It translates to 'Ignorance is Bliss'.

I am strongly considering showing all of this to my therapist because quite honestly, I just don't know what to make of it. I haven't shown it to any of my friends or anything. Parasomnia is one thing, but I don't want them to jump to conclusions on diagnosing me. I am gonna take a bit to think on it. I have a few days before my next session. There's gotta be an explanation for this somehow.

Tea party

I went to my therapist again. Showed him the 'My Room' video with Matthew's comments edited out... He gave me a few recommendations for optimal sleeping and we delved into my not-so-dark past. 

So I have to drink a small cup of tea at night like after dinner, and do something relaxing like read. I went by a tea shop on my way back home and picked up a tea 'infuser', some earl grey, and something called gunpowder that I'm pretty sure is green tea if I understood the tiny Asian woman correctly. Smelled good at least. I drank earl grey tonight which was actually very soothing. Strangely, I remember the smell and the taste, but for the life of me I can't remember ever drinking it.

I plan to get some local grown honey perhaps tomorrow on my way to study group. I know a guy who sells the stuff. I actually do love tea but never had a good reason to get it until now.

Do any of you have tips for good tea? I would really love to hear from someone. Sadly, I am a newbie... 

P.S. - @gregswisdom

What I(?) wrote last night

Actual lettering is a first for me. Really freaked me out when I woke up. I barely slept the rest of the night afterward. I remember scribbling in my sleep a while back but just lines like a two year old or something. Not even cohesive shapes, just random. To go from that to perfectly formed lettering in a margin just caught me way off guard.


If you have any experience in writing in your sleep, I would like to hear about it. Please post in the comments!